Belief, Faith, Family, Friendship

Tiny Little Miracles

It’s hard to believe that we have been here for three weeks. So much has happened in such a short time that it’s impossible to not see God’s hand in this move. We have visited three churches of Christ, since we have been here and have already made good friends. Through these friendships, we have been able to connect with the homeschooling community. Emily is enrolled in piano, will start tennis lessons after Labor Day and will also get to participate in Fall planting at my sister in Christ’s home next month. Needless the say, as I sit here typing out this post, tears are streaming down my face as I reflect on how good God is and has been since we made this move. Though it was extremely hard in the preparation, I am appreciative that Huntsville, is woven into our journey to heaven.

Today has been busy, following worship this morning, we were invited to the home of a family from church for lunch. Not only was the meal delicious, but everything on our plates came from their backyard. Even the kombucha that was served with our meal was homemade. The meal was followed by a tour of their homestead, and if that was not enough, they gifted us with more wonderful vegetables to take home. The one surprise at lunch was the rabbit. I’ve always been hesitant about eating rabbit, but decided today that I would expand my horizons. So, I ate it with gratitude and to my surprise it was quite tasty.

If I had to put a cap on my day, it was that I was able to leave my daughter at the church building this evening after Bible study for her first youth event. She had a great time and made some new friends. She was the primary driver for this move, because I wanted to have her surrounded by other children her age, growing in Christ. God has taken us from isolated to invited and welcomed.

With all of this wonderful happening to us, my heart still aches because Ethan is not here with us to experience this too. In fact, I feel guilty that we are able to live this life without him. It seems so unfair. In fact, I still can’t comprehend that my life is so radically different now. That God would have me go on without my heartbeat, my precious boy. It still hurts so deeply.

Though, I don’t understand, I will cling to my Lord and Savior, trusting that one day I will see Ethan again as he should have always been, whole and well.

“For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:15&16

In Christine love,


8 thoughts on “Tiny Little Miracles”

  1. I understand the feeling of guilt at living a life without the one you love. My daughter & I are living in a new place, living the life my husband & I planned before he passed away.
    Love you! Thank you for this blog.

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  2. Hi Angela, I’m glad you’ve found such a great place to be. The people sound incredibly kind. I understand ‘the loss and going on without them thing.’ It makes me miss my mom even more. Hugs to you.

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      1. I did. She died while I was pregnant with my daughter on October 5, 2008. Were it not for my faith in God, I would not be here. I just envision my son with my mom like she wanted and that gives me comfort too.


      2. Oh no! I don’t think I realized that. I am so sorry. When Joy came to sit with me the day after Ethan died, she said, “ your precious Ethan is in the arms of Jesus and your mom is next to him.” Thinking of that helped me so much in that moment. Even now, when the weight of his death overwhelms me, I imagine him sitting with my mom and talking up a storm. It helps. It reminds me that to remain faithful so that I can be reunited with them one day.


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