American, Belief, Faith, Family, Love, Mindset, Wellness

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

For I will restore health to you, and your wounds I will heal, declares the Lord- Jeremiah 30:17

It is almost hard to believe that a year has passed since this psychological warfare of SARS-COV-2, was unleashed on the world. In the beginning, I was like most Americans, concerned about what the virus would do to the population, but not scared. I never felt that I needed to cover my face or hide out in my home, because as a scientist by education and experience, I knew that none of those behaviors would decrease my risk of getting infected or sick. So, I just lived my life as though nothing had changed. Of course, all the while supporting my body with proper nutrition, rest, exercise and oxygen.

Today, I am still living my life just as I did before Covid 19, became baked into our vernacular. I have managed to remain alive in the midst of the pandemic without following any of the guidelines provided by the CDC or World Health Organization. Has my stance been challenging at times? Yes! But, I have I never felt endangered by my decision. Unlike, most people, I believe my health and wellness are my responsibility. I do not subscribe to the idea that the government knows more than me. If it did, we wouldn’t lead the world in chronic diseases.

So, why does the majority of the US population believe in these measures that aren’t rooted in logic or reason (the root of science); but can simultaneously spew that “you must trust the science?” How can I be expected to trust in a science that doesn’t acknowledge common sense? Or more importantly, the rights of the individual. That is the very foundation of our Declaration of Independence; the rights of the individual must not be infringed upon by the government. Yet, here we are. Many businesses are still closed or not at capacity, companies that have remained open are unable to hire due to crippling debt. And the churches, are still closed to the very people that need fellowship, restoration and renewal. But the real losers in this debacle are the children and the families. Our children are paying the price of ill conceived ideas forced upon them by ignorant adults. How will history remember this time period?

But the people who I have been most challenged by are not those in the world, but those that claim to be in the household of faith..Christians. From the sidelines, I have witnessed Christians fuel the propaganda and miseducation campaigns as though it is their highest duty. I have even watched them politicize race to coerce or guilt people into following this sham and even still virtual signaling their superiority over the ones that refuse to support or propagate the government agenda. Their behavior reminds me of the religious leaders during Jesus’ day. Where are the fruits of the spirit? Where is the compassion, grace or understanding? Where is the love? Shame!! Your behavior has made a mockery of the Lord’s church!!

Where in the Bible does it say that we will never get sick or experience heartache or despair? As if we can do anything in our own power to extend life. Yet, many will drive a million miles to point out how selfish those who have refused the propaganda are, but won’t take five minutes to offer assistance to friends and family who are suffering as a result of these draconian measures.

It is time for us to remember who we are and fight to preserve our ability to worship in spirit and in truth and to be one nation under God. Let us live set apart, sanctified lives proving to the world that we believe above all else the words of our Father in heaven.

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. Psalm 139:13&14

In Christian love,

AngelaChristine

Belief, Faith, Family, Love, Mindset, Parenting, Reflections

This Is Too Hard

The past two weeks have been extra tough. The fatigue that plagued me for several years came back a couple of weeks ago and hasn’t relented until today. Just to give a little context, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s on August 1, 2018, which was exactly one month before my husband at the time texted me to let me know that essentially our marriage was done. In spite of that, I have been able to manage it without medication. However, yesterday was the first time, I have ever considered going on medication due to level of exhaustion that I have been feeling.

I don’t recall there being a specific event or activity that happened that would have thrown me off, or caused me to feel this down, but something did happen to remind me that I am not invincible and I shouldn’t expect to do it all. Which sounds completely insane to me, when I have to do it all, because there is no one else to do what I do. Or perhaps, I’m expecting more than I should. Perhaps, it should be simpler.

This is the trick about growth, sometimes when you make the decision to elevate your life, you sometimes have to tap into areas that you may not want to tap into. When I started working with my Business Leadership Coach, I knew that I would have to tackle mindset and vision, but to go to places that I had never prepared to visit has been harder than I thought it would be.

I believe that I am in the land of limiting beliefs and instead of confronting those beliefs, I have allowed my brain to use the avoidance key, so that I don’t have to tackle what I know to be true and that awareness has manifested itself in the physical of overwhelming fatigue.

An overwhelming fatigue that was finally helped by my taking a walk with my daughter this afternoon. While I chatting with her, I realized that in order for her to do the hard stuff, I have to model it for her. When my mind wants to give me the option of avoidance, I have to conscientiously say no, otherwise nothing changes and my daughter will not understand the meaning of sticking with it, even when you think that you can’t.

While I still have more mind clearing to do, I am keenly aware of the eyes that are watching me. While I may get worn from time to time, it’s okay to allow my children the opportunity to see that I am fallible and that I am still learning too. I am learning to walk closer to Jesus and to leave my burdens with him. I am building my confidence by adjusting my habits and my expectations. I am giving myself grace when I fall a bit short and I have accepted that breaks are necessary to prevent the overwhelm and burnout.

My journey has only just begun and I will arrive where I am meant to be at precisely the right time.

With grace,

AngelaChristine